Currentupdatesandissues

CHAPTER 1

It has been awhile since i last updated any posts. I've been busy lately. I've just got back from a 17 days vacation overseas and guess what,i only got 1 day to pack my things and head back to my campus LOL. its kinda crazy year and month for me i guess plus my little brother have to apply or sign up for he's intake for UiTM which where he has to get back to Malaysia earlier than me my mom and my sister. So he got back to Malaysia alone where my mom could only send him off at the airport only. Thats kinda sad. My mom was crying most of the time. But we did enjoyed the Holiday.

CHAPTER 2

Now i've got back from Aussie. I'm already in college. Edin is already in the same college as me. I've got a few stuff to settle like my course registration and all with the online registration and manual registration. There is freaking a lot of procedures that needs to be done. And yet, i also have to bare with the freaking HOT weather here. geeeeezzzzsssss (!)

CHAPTER 3

I'm lately confuse with my feelings. There's this 'Person' i like recently, he's the type that fits into my LIST OF PERSONALITY I WANT IN A GUY. I have a CRUSH on him i guess so (!) The reason why i like him is maybe because he's very soft spoken, cool, friendly, helpful, caring, loving, awesome, cute, funny and lovable. But the thing i'm not sure if he's the one. I want to tell that person but i couldn't because i'm afraid of rejections i guess. I think for the timing i should just keep quite and keep it to my self and act normal around him i guess. Every time i'm around him, my heart would pound so fast LOL. Is that normal ? I guess not. haha. But i wonder if he likes me that way. Would he? will he? should he? LOL. I'm going crazy because i FUCKING care about this particular person. I dunno. Sometimes i feel like he likes me because of some of the little things he said. But maybe its just a feeling of mine. Maybe i'm just dreaming about it. hahah

CHAPTER 3

Now, currently i fought with CINE (!) again (!) as usual andnow he's ignoring me.as usual. Sometimes he also makes me feel like a bunch of trash being thrown away after being used. urghhh. kinda miss him also. But biarlah, i'm tired. bored of it. pffffttttsss i'm going to stay quite.

AT THE WEDDING

what else could we do at 11am in the morning when there
are barely no one at the wedding place but your
yourself.
PICTURES (!) hahah
this is the most awesome pictures + crazy
of us that i LOVE most :))

( me + EDIN )

this is our or my newest family members
and the closes :))
we love him so much like our own family :)
he's COOL + AWESOME + SHY = CUTE (!)
Love you always :)

(MOM and MUSTAMI and us)

(me and my sister Safynaz)

Credit to Hariz for taking this photo :)

( Syed Syahir and Suhil )

LOL dont they just look the same (?) haha
i think they do.
i guess thats what you get for being cousins :)
they both are just adorable CUTE hehe

(The groom is my cousin :) )

Two days before the wedding ceremony was the IJAB KABUL.
And yesterday 1 May 2011 was THE DAY.
it was their WEDDING CEREMONY (!)
they both we're looking great and damn happy.
even tho they look happy on the outside,we would never
know how they felt in the inside.
nervous feeling maybe heheheh :)
I wish them both all the best forever till death tore them apart :)
make cute babies LOL :))

KIM HYUN JOONG hottieeeee

KIM HYUN JOON

omg, since i started watching korean drama BOYS OVER FLOWERS, im now obsessed with Kim Hyun Joong the singer that is famous from SS501. i've been youtubing him since the day i saw him on BOF lol. :) His dance, his moves, his voice and his personality is so freakin awesome (!) he's like a drug to me for this time.

imy

it has been almost 6 months since we last talk to each other having conversations about anything. i couldn't erase the good memories about me and you until now. if i were in a room alone, i would take my time sitting and thinking of the precious memories i had with you. i really missed that moments. i should have stopped thinking bout you but i can't. i can't because your memory and mine is still leaving inside of me. i should have stopped loving you but i'm still loving you. i've tried a lot of things and ways to erase you from my mind but you keep coming back in my head. sometimes i feel, is it worth it. is it worth thinking of you. rite now i'm missing you alot. sometimes i feel like i want you back but i know it would never happen. we both have lived our separate ways. its just the feeling of wanting you couldn't get out of my mind. i don't really know what happened to me making me trying to avoid you, making me not talking to you. i wish everything could go back in reverse. make it reverse so that i could make the wrong things go rite. all my time when i was with you,i kept on hoping that we could last forever but it din't. i wish you were infront of me so that i could explain everything and hoping we could talk our hearts out. talking about things we should have talked about without any secrets anymore. i really wish rite now you we're beside me as you always did. annoy me as you always did. i miss that alot. I MISS YOU A LOT. comeback. i hope you are the same i person i knew the first time i saw you cause i never change. im still who i am.

HARDEST PART OF ME IS LEAVING YOU

pekara yang paling sukar untuk aku lupakan and tinggalkan adalah kawan-kawan aku yang aku sayang selama ini. aku tak tahu apa yang telah terjadi pada kita orang sejak kebelakangan ini. Mungkin aku yang salah. Mungkin aku lah masalah bagi kau orang semua. Jadi keputusan akhir aku adalah aku pilih untuk duduk luar berjauhan dari kamu orang semua. Aku kalau boleh tak nak tinggalkan kau semua, tetapi mungkin masa dah sampai untuk aku tinggalkan kau. Ini adalah keputusan yang paling sukar untuk aku buat. aku tak lupa kan semua benda yang telah berlaku sama-sama antara kita semua. Lawak, sedih, senang dan aku kurang pasti tentang susah. sejak kebelakangan ini, aku terasa sangat dengan korang, tetapi di sebabkan aku sayang korang sangat-sangat dan aku rasa korang adalah kawan aku, akuu buat endah tak endah sahaja dengan perasaan aku. aku mungkin nampak kuat di luar tapi kalau kau tengak betul-betul, aku nie manusia yang mempunyai perasaan sama sahaja dengan korang. Apa agaknya salah akau sampai korang buat aku macam ni. korang sanggup dengar kata-kata orang yang dianggap sebagai musuh korang dan orang yang kau takuti dan benci untuk buat benda yang memang salah untuk kenakan aku. Aku ni yang selama back-up korang dari perempuan tu,lepas tu macam ni korang buat aku? hurmm..tak pe lah korang. Apa-apa pon,aku kat sini bukan nak membebelkan benda-benda ni kat kau. Benda dah berlaku, aku pon tak boleh nak buat apa-apa dah. Aku pon dah wat keputusan keluar rumah. Sekarang ni adalah masa untuk aku memulakan hidop baru tanpa korang dalamnya atau tanpa korang bersama. :( agak sedih tapi nak buat macam mana. aku hanya boleh diam dan buat seolah-olah tak ada apa-apa yang berlaku. Korang jangan risau, walaupon aku tak ada kat dalam satu rumah dengan korang, tak semestinya aku akan melupakan korang selama-lamanya. korang lah sebahagian dari nyawa aku sampai mati. aku sayang korang sangat-sangat dan aku mintak maaf sebab akau terpaksa keluar rumah dan tinggalkan korang. Sekarang nie aku perlu berdiri untuk diri aku sendiri tanpa pertolongan korang semua. dan aku harap korang pon boleh lakukan benda yang sama. jangan sampaikan orang injak-injak kepala korang dan jadi kan korang macam kuli. Korang perlu menegakkan pendirian korang jugak pada perkara yang benar dan perkara yang salah. kawan tu,kalau boleh pilih yang wangi jangan pilih yang busuk kalau korang paham maksud aku. Sayang korang semua (!) dan akhir skali aku nak mintak maaf kan SYAFIQAH JOHARI sebab aku ada buat salah dengan kau sampai kau terasa mamcam aku mengungkit segala benda tetapi aku tak pernah mintak balik segala benda yang kau pernah mintak kat aku. sorry PIKA. Sorry sebab bawak moto PIKA sekali selama ni. lepas nie aku tak akan ganggu kau dengan moto kau sekali. Sayang korang semua. :'(

THIS IS FOR YOU BITCH J.J (!)

ohhhh,,so all this time,kau lah JALANG yang menyebabkan bende nie semua berlaku. Hey minah J.J (!) kau ingat kau sape ? Kau ingat aku nie kebulur sangat nak berkawan dengan kau. Harap je lah semayang 5 waktu tapi perangai macam cibei (!) haha tolong lah. Kau ingat budak-budak or kawan-kawan sekeliling kau tu nak berkawan ngan kau ? haha HARAMJADAH die orang tak nak kalau boley. Paling-paling pon dia orang cakap kat aku yang dia orang menyesal kenal ngan kau. Kau lah orang yang selalu menyusah kan hidup dia orang. Please lah, kalau nak suroh orang jangan layan aku,kau cermin kan diri kau dulu. Sebab kau lah orang yang patot di pulau kan. Engkau tu, stakat di guna mati-mati oleh kawan kau jer. Sape yang boleh tahan ngan kau. Sorang pon tak tahan. huhu wey minah J.J tak ade sape yang kalau boley nak dekat dengan engkau. Kau tu memang selalu kena cakap belakang oleh orang-orang di sekeliling kau. Kau ingat kau dah ada kereta kau dah handal sangat lah.hahha. tak kebulur lah aku dengan kereta kau. Walaupun aku ni orang yang jarang nak beribadat, aku punya perangai tak ada lah macam kau yang nak memburuk-burukkan orang, mengapi-apikan orang and nak suroh orang ikot orang buat pekara taik macam kau. Aku bersyukur aku dah keluar rumah jauh dari kau. Jadi tak payah lah aku nak menghadap muka kau yang baget lawa (bukan lawa pon) dan perangai kau yang macam sial yang selalu menyakitkan hati orang lain dan melukakn hati budak2 rumah. Gara-gara kau hidop dia orang agak seksa. Kau tengok jer lah nanti J.J bila kau dah habis college. Aku boley confirm kat kau memang kau lah orang pertama yang akan dilupakan oleh orang yang kau ingat rapat dengan kau (!) Aku memang nak tunggu jer saat tu bila dah sampai. Naseb lah orang macam aku nie tak macam engkau (!) Kau kelompok itu je. Kau xkan kemane lah. Kau tengok lah nanti. Setakat CGPA jer tinggi pastu perangai macam SAMPAH dan HAMPEH tak sape yang nak kat kau lah. And by the way, kau tu dah DITIPU BUTA-BUTA oleh pakwe kau yang kau memuja sangat tu. haha. apa sey (!) fyi,kau GOOGLE lah kat internet,mane ader line CELCOM dekat INDONESIA. lepas tu, kalau memang lah pakwe kau tu sayang kau, dia tak akan BLOCK kau kot kat FACEBOOK. kalau kau maseh tak nampak lagi, memang sah-sah kau memang BUTA, BODOH dan KEBULUR JANTAN (!) so,cermin kan lah diri kau sebelum nak menyindir-nyindir or mengata-kata or jadi BATU API (!) sebab bila kau mati, kau lah orang pertama yang kene jilat dengan API NERAKA (!) and btw, AKU TAK TAKOT LAH DENGAN KAU.KAU BUKAN SIAPA2 PON BAGI KAU BITCH (!) Yang Benar Izni Kaiyisah Alsagoff :)

OVERNITE

i guess it has been a month since i last updated my blog. i have been quite busy with my college assignments and some events that i had to handle myself. i only have more or less to say here. If you see this particular picture above her, it was taken by me at 5:30am in the morning, location : MCDONALDS PETRONAS skudai. LOL. it was the first time we, the girls hangout together till late nite (overnite). to me it was a freakin awesome experience at it was the craziest thing and dumb-mess thing that we have done. LOL. the crazy part is where we din't even sleep at all,, we;ve arrived home at 6:30am. we cleaned ourselves up, took a quick shower, dressed up and then head for college. our eyes look identically like panda's. even panda's have cute eyes. but us, we have the opposite of eyes figure LOL. but event tho it was tiring for us, it was a great an awesome experience that i wish could happen any time soon (!)