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Do age makes any difference when being in love {?}

Forget bout it.

Just wanna ask you if you have ever like a person so much, but the thing is, you can't tell that person because you might be afraid of being rejected.

Well, its a little bit hard for me, because that person is always in front of me and telling me stories and yet, he still dint realize that i liked him a lot.

Not being with him or not seeing him for a day , is like not seeing for a year.

He needs to see all the little things that i've done.

But too bad he can't see it :(

On rainy days - Day 3

This picture was taken rite infront of my house in Desaru after heavy rain came.

It was raining.

It barely stop.

I call the bus driver as i usually do,but he said that there's no bus services for today (friday).

I was like "DAMN!".

Walked through the rain as my class starts at 8:30am and my watch is showing 8:15am.

As i arrived at the college, i was soaking wet but not that wet.

I waited about half and hour inside my class when a lecturer came in and told us that there would be no class as our lecturer is called in sick.

PERFECT! i tell you.

I should have stayed at home LOL

This picture was taken rite before i went walking in the rain *LOL

Monster of All drink(s) Day 2

Well, after all the hard work on sunny days, i've decided to have a "BUNCH" of drinks.

LOL

I was so damn thirsty, that makes me order almost six drinks.

(boley tak gtu?)

hahah

Restaurant Pak Aziz dont have only good foods, but they also have plenty of good drinks.

I just can't resist it *LOL*

So i drank 6 glasses of different taste of cold beverages.

Naaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

I was only playing with you guys.

i only ordered one particular drink that i always order when i go and eat anywhere which is TEH-O-AIC a.k.a PLAIN ICE TEA :)

The other 5 drinks are my friends. hehe

IT would be really crazy if i spend all of my money just to buy 6 glasses of drinks.

It is call "WASTING" man !

New hair colour (RED COPPER)

Well, firstly i wanna say thanks to my lil' bro Edin Anakmama sebab teman kan i hari nie.

Thanks a lot bro :)

This is the new color of my hair and i even trim it a little bit on the sides to make it look more cooler :)

Hehe. Thats all i gotta say.

Gudnite Followers, Likers and Haters :P

My room inn Desaru

(this is my room in Desaru)

Well, here is a little bit something that i have take to show you people how my room looks like over here.

Its nothing special but to me it looks cute, pretty and comfortable.

I used to have my roomie here but now she is haveng her practical in Johor Bahru.

So, now im practically living alone.

As u can see from the picture above, that is how it looks.

My room is not that BIG nor that SMALL.

Its "JUST NICE" for a single person like me :)

Semata-mata for the"Marrybrown" cup

(The cutest cup ever)

Hye followers, haters and likers.

Just wanna share this new cup of mine with you people.

I went to MARRYBROWN semata-mata nakkan cawan nih. LOL

I can't resist it.

It looks so pretty in reality.

Love Love Love it . (thats all and goodbye)

Day 1

Morning follower, readers and haters.

My class starts at 12.30pm today and it is the only class that i have for the day.

Woke up at 10.25am without having any breakfast as i have nothing to eat.

Not feeling so good today.

A bit tired and there's something not rite but i don't wat is it i'm feeling.

I miss my family even more everyday as in Bandar Penawar i'm like living alone.

It supposed to be the two of us living in the same house.

But the friend of mine is overnite-ing almost 3 days now at her boyfriends house.

So i just hope everything will go perfectly well today for me :)

(hoping for the best)

Here's Nothing

{A window that could lead me to every open door}

Well, here it goes.

I can't really remember when was the last time i updated my own blog.

I don't really have much to say, since i'm here alone in my room with nothing else to do around my college area, I might as well write a little bit of something rather than doing nothing.

It has been 3 days since i've been here in Bandar Penawar a.k.a "The Healing City" LOL.

I had 2 days of horrible sleeps.

It's my 3rd year being here already.

This would be the last semester of mine.

I bet once i leave this place i would cry because it brings back so much memories.

The good and the bad memories that haunts me and happened to me since the first time i was even here .

Soon i'll be leaving the year 2011.

I want to start a new fresh year of 2012 and not repeating the wrong things i've done in 2011.

Now i've got my new boyfriend with me a.k.a Shaq (together since 8 NOV 2011, 12.45am).

I love him with all my heart, and insyaallah nothing could replace him right now .

Now, this is going to be my last and final semester and I have to do it right !

No more games for me.

I need to focus on what my life is going to be in the future.

I hope it will go perfectly for this semester. Amin :)

(wait for me 2012. Please be nice to me)

ADVENTURE AT THE CITY OF LIGHTS

I HAD GREAT TIME WITH YOU (sky)

MONDAY

Who would have thought that i would be going out on a date with you. I was so nervous, anxious and excited. i even dont know what to wear, or what to talk about or how would i react. The moment i saw you there, my heart was freaking pounding. It wouldnt slow down or stop, but i acted cool without any expressions LOL. We did have great laughs and talks. We watched a movie calles "The Thing" it was bloody boring movie. But knowing you we're there beside me was awesome. After the muvies, we walked for awhile,but we were still kinda shy,because we're trying our best not to TEASE each other because you love TEASING me. LOL. After that walk, that was the last time i saw you and spoke to you. I actually like you, but i just can't. There's just something pulling me back. Something that ask me not to. I'm freaking afraid. And know, i've been ignoring you, avoiding you. As time goes by, my heart is killing me to see you. But i could only say it to myself. What i did was wrong. But i had to. I swear to GOD that i miss you really bad. But i couldnt possibly do anything. Forgive me. You meant the world to me.

Ps:/ Im sorry (SKY)

KANTOI (COVER)

SO WHAT THE HELL IF WE ARE FAT ! LOL

I want to post a shout out to all the big girls out there that no matter how big you are, you can still can play dress up and you are still beautiful even tho you are big. dont bother what people say about you. Just be confident about urself. Learn how to love yourself then loving others. Think about yourself before thinking bout others. Just be you. What im trying to say is that, dont let people make you feel UGLY bout yourself. I just wanna say that u can be beautiful, dont ever let words stop you from doing what you want also. Look at, im big, and not skinny, i can be confident and I dont give a damn what they say bout me. As long as im happy and comfortable than im fine. I cant wear what i want and I can do what i wann do because its my MONEY and its my FREAKIN LIFE ! not theirs :) haha.

"BIG GIRLS YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL"

ENJOY THIS LADIES :))

myconfession

okay.so,since i xdapat nak say it face to face dengan you and susah untuk u and i berjumpe,i akan tell you or ceritakan everything about how i feel bout you here. after i dah critekn kat you everything, its up to you how u nak react. yang penting, ape pon yang terjadi, i harap i'm still your friend. so here it goes. I LIKE YOU. it has been awhile perasaan "sayang" i towards you nie ade, almost a year. cume i tak tahu macam mana i nak cakap dengan you. i takut youpikir i nie bukan-bukan. i takut kene REJECT jugak. i tak tahu kenape,but there's something about you yang buat i SMILE all the time bile i nampak you or jumpe you walaupon u tak perasan. i'm sorry to say, i nie bukan jenis girls yang u biase nmpk kat luar sane yang hanya pandang pada muke, dan wang. I'M NOT LIKE THAT. i pandang pada perangai seseorang. i tak pandang duit orang tu. i bukan mata duitan. i suke orang tu seada-adanya and i tak akan ubah seseorang itu. i tak nak you pikir i nie tak layak untuk being with you. i tak nak you pikir i nie PERFECT sangat utuk you sebab tu i xlayak untuk ada dengan u.i tak nak you pikir pasal STATUS jugak. i memang "sayang" and "suke" you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. seriusly, hati nie tak senang selagi tak luahkan apa i rasa. You dah bagi i harapan kat u hari tu bile u cakap nak jumpe i,and bila u cakap "benda yang you buat itu,u tak penah buat and ia adalah pertama kali bagi you".i sangat-sangat happy masa you cakap gitu. i tunggu you 4 jam masa tu. sannggup tak balik sebab excited sangat nak jumpe you, but u LET ME DOWN masa tu. you cakap you ada class. thenm hari yang masa i jumpe you kat terminal malam tu and you hantar i balik i happy giler sebab dapat jumpe you walaupun tak bercakap. i pulak terkejut and terharu bila the next day Arine Romano cakap bende itu sume berlaku bersebab and rupenye malam tu masa i jumpe u kat terminal secara tak sengaje rupenye bukan secare tak sengaja.u datang sebab nak jumpe i and sebab ou worry kenapa i tak balas message you. tapi malangnye semuanye berubah bile semue nie terjadi. tak tawu kenape tapi i rase macam kite makin jauh. i masih berharap kat you.apa pon orang cakap tentang you i tak kesah. lain orang lain cara. lain orang lain perangai nye..tapi tak apa.i akan tunggu u sampai you datang.i akan pegang cinta you sampai satu tahap kat mana i akan "give up" which i harap tak akan berlaku.orang suroh i lupekan you but, semakin i cube nak lupakan you,semakin rase berat untuk i lupekan you. harap you paham sebab hati i memang tak tenang. you tak dapat bayangkan apa yang i tengah hadapi ni. ada yang mengatakan kat i "bagi masa" kat you. so okay, i akan bagi masa kat you sampai u datang jumpa i. i cuma ada brapa lama sahaja kat sini. i tak nak terlepas.

couldthisbe?

could this be? could be this be the moment that i've been waiting for almost a year? i'm nervous yet excited. is he going to pour his feelings towards me ? is he letting me keeping his heart ? is it is it? but what if all the things that i'm thinking is wrong. what if the point of him meeting me is nothing actually? but he said that "things that he is about to do today wold be the first time for him and it had never happened before". HOMAIGOD (!) what could it be? im anxious to know but yet scared. I hope the moment i see him today changes everything. does he has the same feelings like i had towards him. AM I HOPING TOO MUCH ? lol. what if its true? lol. i'm going crazy rite now. damn. PLEASE HELP ME lol. im going insanely insane :))

SINIS SMILE

well,this is me having a life,and guess what?! i already do have a life and its perfect for me (!)

so BE IT (!)

:)

Currentupdatesandissues

CHAPTER 1

It has been awhile since i last updated any posts. I've been busy lately. I've just got back from a 17 days vacation overseas and guess what,i only got 1 day to pack my things and head back to my campus LOL. its kinda crazy year and month for me i guess plus my little brother have to apply or sign up for he's intake for UiTM which where he has to get back to Malaysia earlier than me my mom and my sister. So he got back to Malaysia alone where my mom could only send him off at the airport only. Thats kinda sad. My mom was crying most of the time. But we did enjoyed the Holiday.

CHAPTER 2

Now i've got back from Aussie. I'm already in college. Edin is already in the same college as me. I've got a few stuff to settle like my course registration and all with the online registration and manual registration. There is freaking a lot of procedures that needs to be done. And yet, i also have to bare with the freaking HOT weather here. geeeeezzzzsssss (!)

CHAPTER 3

I'm lately confuse with my feelings. There's this 'Person' i like recently, he's the type that fits into my LIST OF PERSONALITY I WANT IN A GUY. I have a CRUSH on him i guess so (!) The reason why i like him is maybe because he's very soft spoken, cool, friendly, helpful, caring, loving, awesome, cute, funny and lovable. But the thing i'm not sure if he's the one. I want to tell that person but i couldn't because i'm afraid of rejections i guess. I think for the timing i should just keep quite and keep it to my self and act normal around him i guess. Every time i'm around him, my heart would pound so fast LOL. Is that normal ? I guess not. haha. But i wonder if he likes me that way. Would he? will he? should he? LOL. I'm going crazy because i FUCKING care about this particular person. I dunno. Sometimes i feel like he likes me because of some of the little things he said. But maybe its just a feeling of mine. Maybe i'm just dreaming about it. hahah

CHAPTER 3

Now, currently i fought with CINE (!) again (!) as usual andnow he's ignoring me.as usual. Sometimes he also makes me feel like a bunch of trash being thrown away after being used. urghhh. kinda miss him also. But biarlah, i'm tired. bored of it. pffffttttsss i'm going to stay quite.

AT THE WEDDING

what else could we do at 11am in the morning when there
are barely no one at the wedding place but your
yourself.
PICTURES (!) hahah
this is the most awesome pictures + crazy
of us that i LOVE most :))

( me + EDIN )

this is our or my newest family members
and the closes :))
we love him so much like our own family :)
he's COOL + AWESOME + SHY = CUTE (!)
Love you always :)

(MOM and MUSTAMI and us)

(me and my sister Safynaz)

Credit to Hariz for taking this photo :)

( Syed Syahir and Suhil )

LOL dont they just look the same (?) haha
i think they do.
i guess thats what you get for being cousins :)
they both are just adorable CUTE hehe

(The groom is my cousin :) )

Two days before the wedding ceremony was the IJAB KABUL.
And yesterday 1 May 2011 was THE DAY.
it was their WEDDING CEREMONY (!)
they both we're looking great and damn happy.
even tho they look happy on the outside,we would never
know how they felt in the inside.
nervous feeling maybe heheheh :)
I wish them both all the best forever till death tore them apart :)
make cute babies LOL :))